I still don’t want to believe it but the third test came back positive…again. I’ve been in denial for some time and it’s really not doing me any good. I live everyday in pain, although you would never know it. I don’t complain much except to my husband and I don’t think even he understands the pain I have on a daily basis because he can’t feel it or experience it. People don’t know and do they really even care unless it happens to them? So I keep a positive attitude and keep it to myself.
I knew I had issues with arthritis but I didn’t expect to hear rheumatoid arthritis. Nobody wants to deal with that on an everyday basis. Certainly not me, I’ve never had any health concerns in my life. I’ll be 50 in 6 months and any other time I’ve been to a doctor they would be amazed when I told them I’m not on any type of medicine.
I’m pretty sure me and my primary doctor have broken up. Last time I seen him, I questioned his recommendations, apparently doctors don’t like that. I told him I didn’t like how doctors just prescribe pills without trying to get to the real problem. They just put a bandage on the symptoms. He was obviously upset with me and proceeded to tell me that I’ve been on the internet too much. Yeah, please excuse me if I want to learn as much as I can about this condition jerk! I had questions and he didn’t like that. I wanted to be informed of all my options. He just wanted me to abide by his advice, in his words…”I’ve been a doctor for almost 40 years, I’m an expert at what I do, if you don’t want my advice why are you here? Stop wasting my time if you’re not going to take my recommendations”. He threw the prescription down on the counter and said take it or don’t, I don’t really care and he stomped out of the room. Sounds likes we broke up right?? I think can do better, he didn’t deserve me anyway!
My rheumatologist has me on Plaquenil but I forgot to ask him about taking Naproxen with it so when I was at my primary doctors I asked him if they could be taken together with out complications. His response, “I didn’t prescribe it, I can’t answer that, ask your rhuematologist”. Okay now I know he’s just being an a** to me because of the previous visit. So my options are to also be a pain in the a** (which my husband tells me I’m exceptional at) and keep challenging/testing him or fire him. I’ll probably fire him and find a new doctor who knows how to act like a decent human being rather than pretending to have a God complex.
You don’t know what rheumatoid arthritis is?? Here are some highlights…my immune system is attacking tissues and joints. Chronic pain and inflammation of my joints especially in the hands and feet. Fatigue, fever and weakness. Occasionally tingling and numbness, oh and it can affect internal organs as well. I’m not one to play the victim and I’m certainly not looking for sympathy. This is just my way of finally accepting it and becoming friends with it. I need to find the lighter side of this and introduce Rheumy to my friends Hot and Flash. The three of them should get along quite well. Ahhhh, the joys of aging!